Saturday, November 5, 2011
A girl possessed
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Lullaby
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Back, and complaining already...
The beauty of blogging to an audience of none: no explanation for my absence, or these changes listed above, is necessary. Therefore, I will jump headlong into my blog once again. This time, I hope it will be with a more disciplined posting schedule.
Another perk of having no followers: no one minds what I say. In light of this, I will be saying any and every thought which illuminates the inner caverns and pathways of my pretty little head. Ah, freedom! Another word for "no one cares."
Let me begin, then, by complaining. As a new resident to the metamorphosing neighborhood of East Boston (or Eastie, to those who frequent such haunts as Trainor's or Kelly's Square Pub), I am shocked and appalled at the state of the neighborhood's trash collection practices.
The problem is, residents are encouraged to leave their bags of trash on the ground the night before trash collection day. Dirty. And the filth is then compounded by the fact that East Boston is infamous for its skunk population. I'm sure I don't need to describe the scenes of garbage carnage and destruction one witnesses the following morning. Yesterday, I stepped over a stinking tray of discarded chicken fat, covered in flies and maggots.
What really shocks me, however, is the simplicity of the solution: trash bins. A trash bin, with a proper lid, would reduce litter, render street sweeping almost unnecessary and relieve the citizens of East Boston from the horrors of a putrid, reeking river of trash each Tuesday morning as they walk to work.
I intend to solve all social ills on the blog. Check back frequently.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Church
A young child sits silently and obediently beneath her mother’s soft, strong arm on the wooden and high-backed pew. Her thin legs dangle and swing from the seat and only the preacher’s head, mouth earnestly uttering old and sacred words from the Bible before him, appears in her line of vision. He’s the ring master at the centre of this Sunday circus, flanked by organ and piano on either side and a host of clowns dutifully performing various assigned tasks.
But above centre ring, high above the preacher’s balding head beaded with perspiration waits a ceiling. It’s higher than her mother’s arm, higher than the preacher’s waving arms and higher, even, than the upper reaches of the ornately carved baptismal chamber. Peaks of white rolling mounds like the icing trim of a wedding cake are cut into perfect rows and lines and squares, an infinite grid of white. The child runs her eyes down each row and back again, loving the curves, cultivating a tenderness for the mounds and lines. If she could dip her small finger into the ceiling and then her hand, she could pull it back to her coated in a buttery smooth loveliness. But the ribbons and waves of white are not to be disturbed.
It’s there, above the warm realities of her close, teeming world, she firmly believes in the God they’ve come to worship, this solemn congregation that never looks up. She sees His omnipresent mist swirl and seep between wooden columns, caressing each white moulded dollop of plaster in His translucent cloud of being. She sees Him sway and glow with the rhythm of the sermon and swell with love at the crescendo of a favourite hymn. And at the service’s close, as the last worshiper steps into the sharp morning sun and blinkingly greets his fellows, the mist slips unnoticed behind, and she sees it unwind itself from the columns and rows of crevices and silently hold each worshiper’s torso close as they walk away, the strands pulling and separating with the growing divergence of paths.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Edinburgh
Those bent on attacking the ancient Castle of Edinburgh would have found it formidable. The craggy hill juts almost sheerly up from the coastal plain, and well-placed cannons peer down from the dizzying height of the walls. Long before it was a English fort, however, it was a sacred and religiously vital monument of the original Scots, before Romans march to the highlands and before their kings were deposed in favor of the British.
King Arthur's Seat, to the north of the city, is reminiscent of how the castle hill, pre-British control. The climb is heart-poundingly steep, but the wind at the top is fresh and the heather is sweet, and the view of the city around it unrivalled.
I've included pictures of both from our trip to Edinburgh over the weekend. You can see the sandstone buildings at the base of the castle hill, each laboriously built by the Scots the English used as slaves, and each carved beautifully into the side of the hill, making the streets wind and twist into and under and around each other. It really is a fairytale city.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sacrifice
Lately, Cannon's been leaving early. He's taking an English class from 7 to 10, so he can improve, and communicate in this new country he's made his home. Instead of going home at 10 to spend a tired bit of an evening with his wife and young daughter, Cannon then returns to the pub after class to finish every last dish that's accumulated in the 3 hours of his absence.
I find that absolutely beautiful, and had to share it with you.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Loss
It's always the same hollow, the deep black of a hurt that will never be resolved, never entirely heal. My friend is gone. She's gone and gone and gone forever.
Seven months have passed, but the same emptiness swallows my mind as those first waking thoughts remind me what's missing. She's looking at me, big brown eyes full of love and devotion, and a companionship complete and whole, without one word ever spoken. She knows I love her too and she sits comfortably beside me, but deep down, my conscious mind knows she's leaving. There's no warm brown fur under my stroking fingers, and there'll be no small friend in the bed beside me, nose pressed against my cheek to wake me, ready for our next adventure.
Then my mind plays the meanest trick of all. It's a twisted thing it's always done, especially in social settings where I should be particularly appropriate or well-behaved: it shows me the most horrific thing it can muster. In this case, it's my friend, fur rotted, or mostly so, in a shallow grave in my mother's garden, the elements of the last seven months having decomposed my darling into a horror beyond recognition. Sometimes an active imagination is not a blessing.
That thought passes, too, and as my mind drifts and eases towards those last few seconds of semi-consciousness, the hollowness returns. I'm close enough now to reality to shake my brain awake, grasping at the morning light and holding Liam close, a warm, safe balm against my chest. The dark feeling is fading and my rational mind is able to talk itself calm again, but there's a desperation tucked deeply away from the cool light of day and I know it's permanently a part of me, just like she is.